Chloe Richards

Chapter 5

Customers wandered around the shop looking for cheap stocking fillers, Chloe’s manager had banned decorations and limited festive tunes to the politically influenced ones. At half-past two, she took her cigarette break, brushed her hair and checked her phone, hoping to see a message from Rick. 
“Hey babe,” she called out as she closed the front door behind her. 
“Put the kettle on love.”
“Sure. Coffee Si?”
“Please.” She brought the drinks into them and sat down.
“Busy day?” Asked Rick, eyes fixated on his game. 
“Draining, god, people moan.”
“Ah, tis the season to be miserable, tra-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la.” Sang Simon. Rick raised his eyebrow and warned him to not continue. 
“Sometimes I wish they’d ban Christmas.” Neither of them responded, as it was one of her awkward statements, that dissipated into thin air. “Is Katherine coming over?” she asked, breaking the silence. 
“She’s at yoga,” replied Simon. She cleared away the empty cups and said she was going to have a bath.
“Anyone need the toilet?” 
“No,” they said in chorus, remaining glued to their game. When she left, Simon took a memory stick out of his rucksack and fiddled it in his fingers.
“What’s that for?”
“It’s a movie, you’ll love it.” He looked at the door. “How long will she be?”
“Ages.”
“Good.” He inserted the usb stick into the TV and made himself comfortable on the sofa. Rick leaned his head against his hand. 
“You’re joking right?”  
“I’ll keep the sound down, Katherine hates it when I put this on.”
“Not surprised mate, it’s not my thing either.”
“It gets better,” he panted. 
“Turn this shit off mate, Chloe will go crazy.”
“She’s in the bath though,” he scowled. “What she gonna do, throw scriptures at me?”
“Watch your mouth mate,” said Rick. Simon got up and ejected the USB stick, put on his jacket and left. 
“Where’s Simon?” Asked Chloe, drying her hair in the doorway. 
“Gone.”
“Why?”
“I said I wanted to spend the evening with you. I still feel bad about the ring, I’ve been getting nightmares over it.”
“Oh no, I wish I hadn’t overreacted so much.” He wrapped his arms around her and peeked into her towel.
“You’re my world.”
“You’re my world too,” she smiled. They spent over two hours compiling lists of guests, potential venues, colour schemes, and food and drink. 
“God, I’m exhausted,” sighed Rick, slumping back into the sofa. “Who knew weddings were such hard work?”
“We could do something smaller, if you like?”
“Do you mean that?” He sat up. “To be honest, I’m happy just to have Katherine and Simon there, and head to the Swan afterwards.” She lowered her gaze and stared hard at the list she had written. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” she hesitated, then said in a strangled voice, “I want to  remember the day.”
“You will, and perhaps we’ll finish with a foursome eh?” He chuckled. “For god’s sakes, where you going, I was only joking, can’t you take an effing joke?” She hid in the bathroom and prayed. When she came out, he was adding to The World we Forgot. 
“We haven’t decided if we’ll publish it on Amazon, or make a feature film – a three parter – for YouTube. We’ve had so many people turn up for auditions.”
“How many?”
“Three.”
“Brilliant.”
“One woman,” he paused. “Do you mind women auditioning?”
“Why would I mind? I may audition myself,” she said in jest. He widened his eyes and told her they were only casting serious actors.
“I was joking Rick.”
“So this is a joke?” She shook her head and listened as he to ranted about trying his hardest, feeling like a failure, and never being appreciated. When he calmed down, she apologised for upsetting him.
“I’m not upset, but I won’t be discussing it with you anymore.”
“Rick,” she pleaded.
 “What’s for dinner?” 
“I’m sorry.” She touched his arm, but he nudged her out of the way and told her to bring his food when it was ready.
Tuesday evening in the Swan was quiet, apart from the old man ogling the barmaid, the middle-aged man playing on his iPhone, and the small group of young adults drinking cider, the place was empty. After Chloe’s shift, she tried to call Rick again, but his phone went to voicemail, so she called Katherine instead.
“Hey babe,” she answered in a sing-song voice.
“Hi, have you seen or heard from Rick?” Katherine glanced over at him and mouthed ‘Chloe’ he screwed his face, and continued drinking his beer. 
“No, I haven’t honey, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, it’s just that I haven’t heard from him all day, we had a row yesterday, my fault,” she trailed off.
“Oh no, that’s awful.”
“Yeah,” she sighed. “Anyway, if you see him, tell him I’m worried about him.”
“Will do babes.” She was about to ring off, when Chloe asked her if she wanted to meet at the Swan. “It’s hardly appropriate to go partying when your man is missing hun.”
“I wasn’t suggesting partying. Never mind, I’ll call Lucy.”
“Lucy?” At the mention of her name, Rick’s eyes dilated with fury. 
“Yes, see you later, love.”
“Bye.” Katherine put the phone down onto the table, but before any words could come out of her mouth, he went into a rage.
“What you going to do about it?” 
“She knows I can’t stand that stuck-up bitch. I wish I could stab her to death.”
“Oh?” she replied, noticing a few people sniggering at a nearby table.
“Whenever Chloe’s around her, she turns into a different person. She’s been trying to split us up for years.”
“Perhaps go home, and sort things out with her?” 
“No, she thinks I’m a joke, always has, always will. Just because she’s got some lousy degree.” He continued in a mocking tone. “And a Masters in some shit, she thinks she can talk down to me.”
“I’ve seen it,” said Katherine. “I think we need to get her away from that church, god knows what they’re telling her.”
“Nah, she enjoys going,” he said. After a few seconds they laughed. “I only get so worked up because I love her so much.”
“I know hun,” she squeezed his hand. Simon entered the pub and frowned at them giggling together. He headed to the bar, and loudly ordered his food and drink, expecting that Katherine to come over, but she didn’t.
“I’ll be at that table,” he pointed to where they were sitting, paid for his order and strolled over to them.
“This looks cosy,” he said, dropping his bag on the floor. 
“Hi love,” smiled Katherine. “How was work?”
“Craig had to go to the dentist, so muggins got roped into fixing his car too. It was only the brakes, but on top of all the other cars…” His voice trailed off as he became distracted by the menu.
“Sounds like a busy day. Hungry?”
“Yeah it was. I’ve already ordered my usual, just seeing if there’s anything new. How was work?”
“Quiet, so my uncle let me go early.”
“Nice,” he said stiffly. “Where’s Chloe?”
“They’ve had a row.”
“Why mate?” He asked, realising Katherine must’ve been offering comfort, rather than flirting with him. 
“She thinks I’m a joke.”
“I think you’re over-reacting mate.”
“She laughed when I told her about the casting for the World we Forgot,” he blurted, bashing his fist on the table.
“What?” said Katherine in animated horror, putting the pint glass to her lips to conceal her urge to laugh. Rick reached over took it out of her hand and told her that ladies don’t drink beer. She grinned, then reminded him she wasn’t a lady. He looked at her lips, then back to her eyes.
“So back to the World we Forgot?” Snapped Simon, feeling flushed at their encounter.
“Yeah, what’s that all about?” said Katherine, feeling a little flustered.
“Simon, you tell her, I’m always taking the glory for this project.” Aware that the group of twenty-year-olds were listening, Simon muttered it was a film they were working on.
“When’s the release date?” heckled one of them. Rick turned around, grinned, and said September 8th. “Nice, well done mate.” They clapped in unison. 
“We need to this project moving, people are waiting for it.” Rick knocked back his drink and wiped his mouth with his sleeve. “Well I better back to work.”
“It’s eight thirty?” said Simon, taking his plate from the waitress and thanking her. 
“That’s how much of a hard worker I am, shame Chloe doesn’t realise this.” He said goodbye and left.
 Rick knocked on his customer’s door and waited until she opened it. 
“It’s nine PM, what happened?” 
“Been run off my feet sweetheart,” he grinned, putting the ladder up against the wall. 
“I don’t want my windows being cleaned now, my kids are in bed.”
“I won’t disturb them honey,” he poured the water from his container into his window cleaning bucket.
“Come back tomorrow please.”
“I can’t, you booked me in for today.”
“I know, but…”
“Then I need to clean your windows.”
“Mum,” yelled her son.
“Look Mick,”
“Rick.”
“Come back tomorrow, please,” she closed the door, and went to her sons’ bedroom. She tucked them both into bed and sat on the edge of her eldest son’s bed to read their bedtime story, however she was interrupted by Rick cleaning their window. Twenty minutes later, he knocked on the door, but this time she refused to answer it. He packed up, sat in his car and waited. As soon as he saw the lights switch back on, he got out of his car and tapped on her window, causing her to spill her tea in her lap. 
“Go away, before I call the police,” she shouted through the window. 
“What for? For having your windows cleaned? You owe me ten pounds.”
“Go away.” She closed the window and turned the light off.  
He was fuming by the time he returned home, he had hoped for a quiet night in front of the TV, but instead he found Lucy consoling Chloe. 
“Rick!” She threw her arms around him and kissed him, but he pulled away.
“I’ve been so worried, I’m so sorry about yesterday, have you eaten yet?”
“I’m not hungry,” he sulked, grimacing at Lucy, who stared straight through him, as though he didn’t exist.
“I can get a takeaway? It’s not too late.”
“I said I’m not hungry,” he hissed and headed into the bedroom and got into bed. 
“Well, that was rude,” retorted Lucy, checking the time on her phone. Chloe frowned and said they’d catch up soon. Lucy smiled, gave her a hug, and left. 
 “What was she doing here?”
“She’s my best friend,” she said timidly, sitting on the edge of the bed. 
“I thought Katherine was,” he remarked. “I bet she was slagging me off.”
“No, she wasn’t, she was worried about you.”
“Yeah right. Has she gone?”
“Yes.” He snorted and turned away. 
“I’ve had such a bad day, I don’t want to talk about it,” she felt guilty by her relief, but wasn’t surprised when he continued. “Some stupid cow books me in to do her windows, a ten pound job, I do the windows, and she tells me to fuck off.”
“What a cow.”
“I know,” he sat up and rolled a joint. “Sorry I snapped at you hun, I’m so mad at the moment, people are always taking the piss out of me.” She stroked his back as he vented. “Hmm, you’ve got such lovely hands.”
“Thank you.” She continued massaging him. “So have you thought about moving?” She admitted that she hadn’t given it any more thought as the upheaval would be too much hassle. “We could move closer to your mum?”
“You hate my mum,” she said, pausing the massage. 
“No I don’t, I just hated the way she let Ollie…”
“She was scared,” she interrupted, pulling away from him.
“Too scared to protect her daughter from a paedo?” Chloe stared at him and rebuked the enemy in her mind. “Anyway, that’s all ancient history,” he grinned, sliding his hand up her top and unclipping her bra. “You’re so beautiful babe. Sorry I’ve been so ratty.”
“Not your fault, sweetheart, are we okay now?”
“Yeah,” he gulped as he rolled onto her body. “We could buy a house in Medlow, or Ashington?”
“Ashington is too expensive and I don’t want to move back to Medlow.”
“You can’t keep living in the past Chloe, it’s time to move on.”
“Medlow has too many bad memories for me,”
“That doesn’t matter does it? You’re not eight anymore, are you? Perhaps talking about it will help,” he whispered.
“I don’t want to,” she turned her face into the pillow. 
“I won’t stop until you do,” he smiled, increasing his speed. Her voice became childlike as she told him about Ollie. When he finished, he asked if she had any videos of it. 
“No,” she choked, turning her back on him. 
“I saw Kat earlier. God, I love her boy tits.” He propped himself up on his elbow. “By the way, I’ve seen the ring I’m going to buy you, it’s stunning.” He leant over to and asked if she was in a mood.
“No,” she trembled. “Thank you.”

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Chloe Richards

Chapter 4

Chloe purchased a lilac, synthetic rose bouquet and was about to look at wedding dresses when Rick made her jump by planting a huge kiss on her cheek. From behind his back, he produced a ring box. She clasped her hand over her mouth and gasped with excitement. 
“Aren’t you going to open it?” he grinned, snapping open a can of beer. She opened the box, revealing its empty contents. “Oh, I wish I had a camera, your face!” he roared with forced laughter. She threw it at him and ran out of the room in floods of tears.
“Babe, it was a joke,” he followed her into the bedroom. “I’ll get you your ring, I thought you’d laugh.” He wrapped his arms around her. “I’m so sorry my angel, you mean the world to me. Can you feel that? It’s yours, much bigger than any stupid engagement ring.” He slipped his hand up her top, but she pulled away.  
“Chloe, please, I said I’m sorry, what more do you want?” She lowered her gaze and mumbled that she was going out. After being tooted a few times for swerving, she parked up and opened her bible, her eyes fell upon the same passage that been haunting her for days. 
“I get the message okay. Don’t be unequally yoked, blah blah…” she shoved it back into the glove compartment and lit a cigarette. 
You still sulking?? 
She deleted his text message, she wasn’t sulking; she was distraught. They had been engaged for eight weeks, but he hadn’t shown any interest and now she was feeling like a fool. She got out of her car and pushed open the creaky gate of a disused playground. She sat on the bench, stared at her surroundings, the swings were tangled around the bars, the roundabout had been uprooted, and graffiti tags covered benches and walls. She closed her eyes and prayed, several minutes later she was disturbed by a couple arguing as they walked past the park. She turned and watched them. He swore at her, she swore at him. He insulted her, she insulted him. In comparison, Rick wasn’t that bad, just insensitive sometimes, but at least he was never nasty to her in public. As a peace offering, she bought him a box of chocolates and four cans of beer.
“You calm down yet?”
“I’m sorry,” she passed the items to him, but he refused to take them, so she placed them on the countertop instead.
“Sorry about what?”
“For overreacting,” she said in a stilted voice. “Yes, it would’ve been nice if there was a ring inside, but…”
“Don’t worry, I’m used to it,” he left the conversation and headed straight for his Xbox. She followed him and asked what he wanted for dinner. Several minutes later, he replied beans on toast. She prepared him a large plate of food and brought it to him. 
“I’m not hungry.”
“But it’s seven o’clock.”
“So, are you my granny?”
“No,” she grumbled, taking the plate away. “Perhaps we can watch a film later, after your game?” She waited for him to respond, but when he didn’t she trudged into the kitchen. Ten minutes later he asked her what she wanted to watch. 
“Anything,” she replied to the wall.
“See you later,” he snarled.
Rick pushed the pub door open and caught sight of Katherine and Simon.
“Where’s Chloe?” Asked Simon. 
“Sulking. She asked if I wanted to watch a film, I said yes, then she expects me to choose, but it was her idea. Then she gets all moody.”
“Bloody hell. Anyway mate, we’re about to go home, Kat’s horny.” He laughed, but she jabbed his arm.
“Don’t let me stop you.”
“You can come and watch?” Said Simon.
“Nah, I’m not in the mood, next time.” Katherine followed Simon out of the pub and took the motorcycle helmet him.
“What was that about?” She frowned.
“What do you mean?”
“Asking him to watch us?”
“No big deal, is it?” he replied, mounted his bike, and secured his helmet. Soon he was weaving in and out of traffic and planning a romantic night with his girlfriend. 
A group of women in their thirties egged each other on, until two of them approached Rick, however he was so annoyed with Chloe, that he didn’t even look at them. He stood up, took his drink, and found another table.
“Faggot,” yelled the woman, storming back to her friends. He drummed his fingers on the table, finished his drink in one, and called Rosie. By the tone of her silky voice, he knew she was smiling. He picked up his jacket, walked past the jeering women, and headed out of the pub. He sped walked down the street, shoulder bumping into a couple of people.
“Sorry mate,” he increased his speed into a slow, lazy run, and thought about Rosie. Catching his breath, he composed himself and tapped his knuckles on the window. After a few moments, a stony faced light-skinned man opened the door. Rick asked where Rosie was, but the stranger didn’t answer him. His body blocked the entrance, forcing Rick to bob his head in different directions, trying to spot Rosie behind him.
“Come in darling,” she beamed. Rick glared at the man, who happily stepped aside and let him in. Rick gasped at the sight of Rosie.
“Hi,” he quivered.
“Hello, my darling, how are you?” She got up, poured him a glass of red wine and placed it in his hand. 
“Great,” he gulped. 
“You’ve met Shane?” The two men nodded at each other. “He’s such a darling.” She patted a space next to her, Rick launched himself onto her, but she pushed him away. “Sweetie, you act like a silly boy.” Rick glared at Shane as he snorted a cruel laugh. 
“What we gonna do then?” Grumbled Rick, sticking his hands inside his pockets, and shuffling his feet.
“What’s your rush?” Smiled Rosie.
“No rush,” he sulked. “Anyway, what about him?” Asked Rick, staring at the wallpaper behind Shane.
“What about me?”
“It’s him, or me?”
“You decide,” said Rosie. 
“No, you decide.” He hissed. She shrugged and began massaging Shane’s shoulders. “So, you’ve chosen him, eh?” Rick glared at her waiting for a reply. When she laughed, he called her a whore, stormed out and kicked over her flowerpots.
 “We should’ve stayed, Rick looked like he needed us,” said Katherine.
“He needed to rant. Men aren’t interested in other men’s rants”
“You’re a shit friend.”
“Maybe,” he retorted.
“Do you think they’re going to split up?” 
“I doubt it.You know what they’re like.” He writhed on the bed whacked himself.
“Come on babe.”
“Not in the mood.”
“So, now you don’t want this?”
“No,” she hissed. “And next time don’t tell Rick our business.”
“So you’ve changed your mind because of Rick?” He sneered, sitting up.
“No,” she hissed, then called Chloe.
“She’s not answering.”
“She’s probably praying.” 
“Yeah, I guess so, I wonder what’s going on.”
“Why do you care so much?”
“They’re our friends?” she hissed.
Rick sat hunched over on the chair, ruminating over his visit to Rosie’s house. He guzzled the rest of his beer, crushed the can in his palm, and threw it on the floor, wishing he could’ve done the same to Shane. He went into the bedroom, pulled off his jogging bottoms and climbed under the sheets. “I love you.” 
“I love you too,” smiled Chloe, and closed her eyes.               
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©Annmarie Chanel Harrison 2020

Chloe Richards, my novel, my motivation.

Before I realised I was in Chloe’s shoes, I’d often ask myself why does she put up with his belittling ways, why doesn’t she just move on with her life? Then one day I realised I was always in Chloe’s shoes. I wasn’t the strong Christian woman I was faking myself to be, deep down I was emotionally scarred and scared of life, it was easy to hide behind a Rick Hargreaves and tend to his needs, rather than tend to my own. Which is precisely what Chloe does, she hides behind Rick, so ultimately she doesn’t have to deal with her own issues.

Lesser- spotted Early Bird

So here I am, up early, typing away, I’ve been awake for almost an hour. I’m a lesser-spotted early bird.

I haven’t always been this way, in fact I could’ve been described as a “night owl” for most of my life. During my teen years, I hardly slept, staying up until 3 or 4am, quick nap, ready for school. When I became a mum, I didn’t sleep. Sleep deprivation was cruel to my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical wellbeing. I went from a pretty size 8 19 year old, to a haggard looking 20 year old. What happened? Well I was no longer a night owl, or an early bird, I was a single feather, floating through life.

Years later, I found myself naturally falling asleep after the children had gone to bed, I no longer had any babies, so everyone slept through, except me. I’d wake at 1 or 2 am. Stay in bed for a couple of hours, then start my day, this irritated me so much.

But one day, I decided to change my perspective, if I was going to wake up early, then I’d do something about it. So here’s my daily routine, before the rest of the house wakes up.

1:Spend time with God – a thank you prayer, and daily guidance.

2: 3 minute meditation on OM

3: Yoga. Some mornings I practise one hold, such as child’s pose to stretch out my body, or I’ll do a vinyasa flow, I also follow a few teachers on Udemy.com to vary up yoga routine. Or if I’m running short on time, I combine yoga and meditation and do a relaxing shavasana.
4: Drink warm water (some days I’ll drink a tea or coffee)
5: Write in my gratitude journal
6: Read a few scriptures.

And if by some miracle, I wake up late (6:30am) then I prioritise what I can do.
1: Spend time with God
2: Meditate on OM
3: Vinyasa flow
Coffee and wake up house.
Since starting this routine at the beginning of 2018, my mood, ability to concentrate, communicate clearly, experience inner peace, experience joy, be far less reactive, improve existing skills (such as drawing) have all improved so much.
So if you haven’t already, I’d highly recommend starting a morning routine, that suits you, and I guarantee it’ll change your life.
Thanks for reading, and have a blessed day.
Annmarie x44253142_915798565475308_1677996731310014464_o